everythings is out of control..i cant done my job well..so shit..
haiz..i feel like my life so miserable..i'm a failure..so useless..
everyday i work,is juz a simply job but i cant get the right amount everytime..
everynite,i cant control myself from asleep..i dunwan babe gt hurt becoz of tis..
i cant get gud result on my study..i fail my account presentation?!wat the hell is dat?!damm it!
i wan to play basketball..i wan my stamina n my skill bak..but i juz cant oush myself to work on it..y i such a failure n cant do those thgs..even myself hate me..y i cant do thgs well..........
I HATE MYSELF...
i want to stop all of this..i want to change..i dunwan such a miserable life anymore..i dunwan to waste my time even for 1second anymore...
there's things i'm gonna change :
1. DO NOT FALL ASLEEP ACCIDENTLY AGAIN!
2. TRAIN MY STAMINA BACK N GRAB THE CHANCE!
3. NO MORE MISTAKE IN MY WORK!
4. STUDY HARDER N GET BETTER RESULT,NO FAIL N BE TE BEST AMONG THE REST!
5. MANAGE MY TIME N MONEY WELL!
6. STOP EATING NON STOP N KEEP FIT!
7. TREASURE EVERYTHING I HAVE NOW N EVERY SECOND BEING WIF BABE..
i will prove myself..dunwan to be a failure anymore!hope i can doall of these n not for few days oni..i wan to change totally..
no more 'FAILURE',
'SUCCESS' is cuming!

17/7/2010--happy 18th birthday!!
this is the most happy birthday i ever had~~wohoo~
i get many frens wisshes which i dint get b4 lik tis~~
thx my frens n facebook~~haha..if not dun thk anyone will rmb my birth..haha
the most happy things is i spend my birthday with my dearest babe!!
nothing happier than this~~i stick to my babe for the whole day~`haha
damm happy..thx for babe willing to spend ur time with me~~hope u like it..
first at all,v go to kl central by ktm..i thk tis te first time i take ktm wif my babe..
then tis will b our 1st time~`hehe ^^
then v went to wangsa maju by lrt..te lrt like no ppl..v sit at the last part n like not many ppl there..is reli happy to sit wif babe..stick together~~kaka
then,v reach wangsa maju n take taxi to carefour~~shop 4 a while til 12pm n bought some stuff to my home..thx babe~spending ur money for me..hehe....v went to four season restaurant after that..v sit at the winter room~babe ordered spagethi n mine is chicken chop~~the food is tasty,view is nice,valueble n gt a free piece of cheese cake too~~the most important is babe eating wif me~`hehe~~v take many many foto too~~nice memory~~then v take taxi bak to my condo..babe finally come to my condo~~want it for so long time~~want to share my life here with u~~v take many nice nice foto n do many thgs dat v din do for a long time~~miss all of these~~^^
other than that,v had did sumthg v haven done b4~~haha~`babe,u noe i noe rite~~wakaka~~
banana is nice~~bleuk~~ XP
Now, my room is full of our memories n i miss u so much~~No matter what i do.where i go..i will thk of u all te time..treasure our sweet memories..
miss the time v spent together..babe..thx for giving me such a happy n great birthday~~
u r my treasure..i love u more than i could..hope to celebrate my birthday with u every year~~hehe~~`muakzx~love u babe~~

dis week is te worst week!!oh my gosh!!i feel like wanna die la..fuck my life!!is so shit!!
there's my shit life :
MONDAY-wake up int e morning..get ready then go wait for bus..then,the bus came..line up lo..
shit man!the bus full!it close te door!!hav to take taxi lo...then..today is my first day
work..first day edi shot money rm12?!omg..at nitez..fall asleep..gv my bei ''chan'' dao..
TUESDAY-the alarm is not working at all!!the battery loose dy..shit la..luckily i still hav fon..
after get ready..go skul..everythgs fine..play ball then having IA test..is quite easy..
juz petty cash..oni te fill in the blanks tough bit la..after te exam..v have been told
that IA tutorial cancel~~wooh~~play bal then balik rumah~~having bath and enjoy
my tasty mee~~then suddenly..msg came~today have te class~~opps..fine..dun care..
everyone oso skip it wad..haha..then..go to work..shot again?!few rm..haiz..duno y
shot oso,,then..TERsleep again..makes bei angry..haiz..sorry babe..i don mean dat..
WEDNESDAY: wake up at 8.30am..oh shit!!late?!after i scared myself,suddenly rmb today is
wed not tues..huu...then lik usual go to bus stop using back door..!!!!!te door is
lock!oh shit..i din have te key..then how?!wan to go to front door n go bus stop?
sure late dy..n lazy to walk so far..then mah wait lo..wait ppl come n open it..
after 5minutes..then got ppl come n luckily he have te key..hahaha..then mah
go out lo..then take bus to skul..today having qs lecture n english tutorial..I found
out dat eng teacher likes to ask me to answer those exercise question..lols..then..
go home n bath then go to work again..go to back door again..shit!!locked!!omg..
i have no time to go front door n go again..then wait lo..watit 5minutes dy..no ppl..
wait again..still no ppl..late dy!!plan to climb te wall dy..when i;mr eady to do dat..
ppl come!!wow~~no nid to climb dy~`hhe..late to work but still ok lar..to day no
shot la..but argue with bei again..haiz..pai seh a..sorry...
THURSDAY: set 5alarms in my fon~~haha..den i sure dun late wan..wondering y my alarm
clock din ring??te time is rite n is working..y leh??oh shit!!i din turn on te alarm
button..haha.how stupid am i..luckily my fon alarm work~~juz bring a book to skul
~~cool~~haha..after on9,eating,rest,do homework..den work lo..today buzier than
normally..oh my gosh..keep doin thgs..n a stupid kid!!!shit u!!run away when i din
notice him n buzying other thgs..den oni i realize he din pay!!ish...cause me shot lo!
dun let me c dao u ar!ish...

hope all my bad luck go go go go away!!enuf of all of tis!!!good luck faster cum!!
hope my bei can cum my house sat~~happy birthday to myself~~wakaka~~
LOVE U BABE~~MUAKZX~~

wow~~At last most of those assignment and coursework finish~~juz left eng n IA oni~`
wohoo~~everythgs is fine here..more adapt to college life dy..
is quite buzy..but istill hav time to do my own thg la..not dat buzy until no time la~
But..my social ability reli got some problem la..
haha..edy 8weeks..but i still duno most of them hu is hu..
i noe those name la..but i duno which wan is dat..wakaka~~social freak~
but at least i hav more frens n talk to more ppl la..juz nid time~everythgs gud~
hav to keep on study becoz i want to get a better result~becoz.
in my class,my class rep(means ketua) is better than me n another guy(4gt te name dy -.-lll) oso
...dun ever say now is te best,coz i noe i can do better than dat~~
come on~lets make my baba proud of me~~hehe~~
besides~~i hav a new idol----ZHANG YUN JUNG!!
wow~she's so amazing..cant stop to hear her song n watch her video..
like her sound n her song..reli nice..n she so real..dats wat i like..no pretending n mask..
juz do herself..same lik S.H.E~~like them..like ppl dat r real n nice to ppl..
summore she's so talented n good looking~~wow~~haha~~jia you,yun jing!!supprt u always!!
Beside,there's a thg very weird..i oni eat few at here..but y i like becum fatter???? @.@
I thk is becoz i din exercise..haiz..now i keep running running~i hav to find all my stamina bak!!
I wan to play well in president cup..last few game i play sucks n like lost in myself..
tis te last year for me to join tis game..is so upset if it end wif a bad performance..
haiz..i reli wan to play well..i edy keep on train myself n dun let my stamina down..
although i noe there's not man chance 4 me to play in te game..coz edi semi n te final..
i din play well b4 summore..but if i get te chance..i will grab it n play my best in te game..
i dun hiope to have any regret..My last year 4 my basketball game..reli bu she de...haiz.. T.T
Times go fast..if v din grab te chance v have at tis moment...maybe v wont hav te chance anymore...same as love..i noe i hav te right person edy..i will grab it n wont let it go..
Babe,i miss u very much here...hope to c u soon..i'm fine here..juz having sick..
sick becoz of too miss u..
wan to c u at tis moment n hav u to slp beside me..
hope u r te first one i c when i wake up..
hope to hav breakfast wif u n a goodbye kiss from u b4 i go to skul..
hope ti c u when i cum bak n having dinner wif u..
hope to spend all my time wif u..
hope all my hopes cum true..

BABE...I LOVE U..MORE THAN ANYONE IN TIS WORLD..
U R MY ONLYY ONE I LOVE N TE ONE I LOVE MOST..
NO ONE CAN CHANGE MY LOVE TO U..
MUAKZX~~

take care babe..dun make urself so tired n stress..u hav men my love~~i will alway support u..